i gave birth to a beautiful baby girl on my exact due date (amazing!). well you may have deduced from my very long absence from this blog site, i've been busy taking care of her, i breastfed for 3-4 months and now i'm back to work.
it's amazing, really. until now, i still feel awed by the experience and the fact that a life depends on me now. i've never felt so needed in my entire life. and i'm still waiting for the day when she'd call me "mommy" or "momma". im hoping it would be in the next couple of days. that would perhaps be one of most thrilling part of being a mom. now, all she can say is aahh, aahh, aahh...
i never seem to get enough of her. i could stare at her forever. i could cuddle her forever. i could kiss her forever. and im dreading the day when she'd be old enough to stand on her feet and refuse any help from me.
i turned into a worrier the instant i became a mom. im paranoid that my baby doesn't get enough milk, that a mosquito might bite her and get sick, all those things that my mom used to worry about...i understand now. i never fully comprehend my mom's strictness until i became a mom myself, cliche but it's true. and for these reasons i wanted to become a full time mom so i can take care of my baby 24/7 and probably start a business so i own my time but this i'd talk about in my next entry. hopefully soon.
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