unexpected

"no pregnancy is alike, each is a unique experience..."

my former OB told me that aside from the fact that my tummy is gonna grow bigger and my breasts will be swollen/tender, nothing extraordinary is happening to me.

but i am growing a child, a human, inside me, isn't that bizarre?! well, i guess you know why she's my former OB now ;)

i have 2 older sisters who already had their share of experiences in this kind of ordeal (huh!). and i am comforted by the fact that i saw them go through it with not much difficulty. i was hoping that it runs in the blood and therefore will be the same for me. oh well, so much for hoping...

my very first pregnancy symptom was not at all apparent: i was having difficulty in breathing. at first, i thought that my hyperthyroidism has recurred. i even had an ECG test but the doctor said that it'll return to normal in a few days time. he gave me meds for low BP but i doubted his diagnosis so i did not take the meds :P

then came the most obvious one: missed menstruation. ok, no cause for panic! it's just only been what?! 3 days?! it's only a delay (but in the back of my mind, i was thinking, i have never been "delayed" all my life). maybe this is the first time...

so life went on...we had our usual saturday badminton. smash, hit, jump! i was still having shortness of breath but i disregarded it. i was enjoying the game...

monday came but i decided to take a leave from office so i could rest. maybe the stress from work and daily travel is causing the delay. to surprise my hubby, i cooked pasta with dried fish for dinner (a weak imitation of pasta with gourmet tuyo from TOSH). everything went well, until dinnertime came... i cannot bear the smell of dried fish - i cannot even bear to look at it as the mere sight makes me wanna vomit. urrghh.

that's when we decided to buy a home PT. i read in the internet that HPT's give best results when done using the first urine in the morning. so i did just that. i woke up at 5am, and did the HPT. 2 red lines. positive!

i honestly don't know how i felt when i saw the lines. i felt like a teenager who got pregnant. mixed emotions are building up inside me. maybe the fact that i wasn't ready for all the changes that's gonna happen to me, to us, sparked up the emotions inside me. i woke hubby up and told him it's positive. his first reaction was "where is the test?". he needed to see for himself. seeing the tears in my eyes, he didn't know how to react. he just embraced me.

we let the morning pass without talking about it. but we agreed that we are going to see an OB-GYN soon. when i got to the office, i emailed hubby to ask him how he felt? he said that he was happy and excited though he cannot show it to me then because i wasn't feeling the same (oh, bad e). he said other comforting words which slowly lifted my spirit...

i am now going on my 3rd month of pregnancy. what i am going through is definitely not a bed roses but i am comforted by the fact that i have my loving hubby who's always beside me and my family and friends who are always there for me.

thank you all.


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